— Live fast. Die young. Fuck hard.—
Red Jack. Rude. Crude. Horny ginger mess. In love with… himself.
Loki. Deadbeat. Volatile. Stalker. Terminally ill. Fatally in love.
When it comes to men, Red Jack has three rules. The guy has to be hot, out of town, and not up for repeats. It’s a good way to keep the gay flings far away from the eyes of his brothers in the Coffin Nails Motorcycle Club, and he will make damn sure it stays that way. When a hookup takes an ominous turn, and the sexy stranger turns up at his house, the heat is on. Loki invades his life and just won’t leave, wreaking havoc wherever he follows Jack, but getting rid of him becomes harder with every kiss.
The world crumbles around Loki when he finds out he has cancer. As if his life wasn’t shit enough already. With only a few months left, he decides to live to the fullest and get every last wish on his bucket list fulfilled. One of those is fucking the hot bearded biker he meets the same night he got the bad news. Big, confident, and dangerous, Red Jack is all Loki ever wanted in a man. After all, he deserves one last shot at love. Who cares if Red Jack is a stubborn, closeted asshole? Loki knows what he wants, and he won’t settle for anything less. Even if it kills him.
Themes: Outlaw motorcycle club, criminal activity, hurt/comfort, abuse, sexual orientation issues, stalking, revenge, bucket list, coping with illness, first love
Genre: M/M dark erotic romance, suspense, drama
Length: ~105,000 words standalone novel (contains HEA)
WARNING: Adult content. Explicit gay sex, strong language, graphic violence, abuse scenes, drug use. Reader discretion advised.
If this is your first time reading a K.A Merikan book than heed the warnings. If you are looking for a fluffy, hearts and flowers, rainbows and sunshine kind of story then this book will not be for you. It’s gritty, it’s raw, it’s violent and it’s crude.
I’d love to be able to just sit around a table with these authors just to listen to them brainstorming their next novel. They have this unbelievable way of creating characters and story lines that take you so out of your comfort zone where you become so engrossed you can’t look away. This book was another page turner for me as I couldn’t put it down.
Red Jack is exactly like the synopsis claims. He’s rude and crude. He believes he’s god’s gift to woman. He proclaims he’s straight but a mouth is a mouth so he has no problem finding random guys that will drop to their knees for him. This however is done in secrecy because his club can never find out. Quite frankly I wasn’t sure I liked him all that much in the beginning. There was a side of him that intrigued me, but the let’s face it the guy is an asshole.
Loki is a guy who’s living with a terminal illness and only has so much more time left. He has a bucket list of things he wants to accomplish before he dies. One of them on his list is sleeping with a ginger.
Somewhere out there was a masterplan for Loki’s life, and this guy was about to fulfill it.
When he hooks up with Red Jack he doesn’t exactly get to cross off that from his list. Loki is determined to have Red Jack and becomes a stalker of sorts. He is completely obsessed and determined to make Red Jack fall in love him so can live out his remaining days with him. I really hated the way Red Jack treated him but I quickly realized that Loki was just as screwed up. He really isn’t this innocent guy that I felt sorry for.
Their relationship is very volatile and violent, but I really loved watching how these two men through all the ugly, emotionally come together. It was a really slow burn emotionally as Red Jack comes to terms with who he really is but seeing that grow over time really kept me glued to the pages. Where I didn’t really like him at first, he really started to grow on me and I actually started to understand his tough exterior a lot more. My heart broke for the things Loki had endured and I really loved how there was this big turning point for both the men. This book is filled with so many lies, deceit and manipulations but the trust, love and understanding between these men was really beautiful to see developed.
There could be a dozen beautiful girls making out around them, and Red Jack’s attention would still be on Loki. On the flushed chest, on the stiff dick, on his handsome face and seductive smile. There was no turning back after this.
“You’ve made me feel things that I thought were dead in me,”
I’m such a huge fan of these authors writing. I really love that when you pick up a K.A Merikan book you know there will never be a dull moment. I love how I just get sucked into a world where there is so much thought put into the characters and the plot. This is definitely another hit from these very talented authors. I can’t wait to see what else they come out with.
Boots crunching over dirt and tiles pulled him out of his grim thoughts. The steps were confident, and Loki couldn’t wait to see what man belonged with the gorgeous dick from the picture.
He stared at the empty doorway, into the blue-tinted evening outside. Standing up straight, he waited. The higher powers toying with his life did not disappoint. Just seeing the masculine figure emerging from the darkness had Loki’s heart skipping a beat. His hookup was broad in the shoulders and tall, like a modern day barbarian with his thick, carefully trimmed red beard. Every step the man made had Loki taking in more detail. He had a stylish long undercut, a black T-shirt with ‘Route 666’ written across the chest, and a pair of nicely fitting dark jeans.
He stretched his arm, which was covered with a full-sleeve black and white tattoo, and grabbed Loki’s jaw. “Hey. You ready to make use of that pretty mouth?” He winked with a cocky smirk. Even his voice was sexy; deep and low like the hum of an engine.
Loki gasped, sliding his hands over Red’s sides, eager to get a taste of his mouth first. The guy had a presence to fill the whole room, his movements steady, confident. He wasn’t looking for a thrill from the comfort of his safe life, like Richard had by getting himself an edgy boyfriend. This guy was thrill. He was all man, and Loki wanted to kiss the feet of the angel who brought them together.
But when Loki leaned closer to kiss his ginger destiny, he got pushed back abruptly.
“I don’t kiss,” said Red, zeroing in his bright blue gaze on Loki’s eyes.
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